Growing up

Tonight I had the conversation with my boyfriend about what is going to happen when we both go to college.  It is something that I have thought about, but have always wanted to push aside. Fact is, come next year, we are both leaving this town, and possibly in opposite directions. He is going to school in Alexandria, which is several hours away from here. Now, I have no idea where I am going. Maybe I'll go to Carleton, and then we would only have a few hours between us, but my next  closest choice is over 15 hours away, and the others are on the coasts; about as far away from Minnesota as you can get. We are going to be far away from each other no matter what happens. now, he has about two years of college, where as I'll have about ten. If we are still together at that point, I don't know if he will want to stay in whatever college town I find for myself...

And now, he has told me that he will probably be moving late spring or early summer, so I wont be able to spend my summer with him as I had hoped. (And the likelihood is that he may not even be coming home for summers) This time is coming so fast, and I don't know how to handle it.

We all have to grow up and move on. The problem is, I don't want to. I'm happy here. I wish now could last forever. We often joke about a future together. Little silly thoughts with undertones of seriousness. I can't help to wonder if these things can happen. But can we stay together when we will be so far apart?

If growing up means losing him, I wish I never had to grow up. I wish I could stay here forever. But time moves on and carries us with it. We can't fight the current no matter how we try.